If you write it, they will read.

I guess it's been a long time... I've got busy with a lot of things. No one missed me anyway no one reads this blog but hell I should write more then maybe people will read right? I mean " If you write it, they will read." right?

OK... so, what have I been doing you ask. A lot between helping mom with her stuff, my own junk, then also helping with the scholarship fundraising, helping with party planning ( b-day, baby showers, graduations) you name it I've been helping with it. Oh, and the newest addition my wedding. I was planning it for next year but, mom pushed to have it this year if she paid for it. Can't pass up the chance for her to help with it cause we really don't have a lot of money for anything other then bills really. So, it was moved up a lot... like a year and 20 days to be exact.

I'm trying to plan the wedding but seems everyone is trying to get me to do other shit when I really don't feel like messing with anything else, then when I get finished with what they want guess what I don't feel like messing with any wedding plans or anything I just want to sit and do nothing and let myself rest. I feel so lazy but hell I can't help it when I feel like crap most of the time over one thing or another ( body or mind depends on the day really).

If anyone is reading this they are more then likely saying " just say no" well I can't normally especially when its for my mom or something to do with my sister. Hell few months back I lost my grandmother to cancer now. She had cancer and took chemo/radiation and all and it worked for well over 5 years but the cancer still came back in another area. So, what can you do? when life is quite literally stacked against you in every and all possible way.

Tonight is graduation for Austin High School. I know most of the kids of 2010 and even some before and after cause Destinee would have graduated tonight, they are doing a honorary graduation thing for her. I'm proud of them all for making it, I know some kids didn't and it hurts a bit cause I know they aren't thinking about the future and what it will bring with out a diploma. But I do, I've seen a lot who haven't graduated or even have a GED go to hell but then some go really far.

My mom and dad neither graduated but they did well. yes factory work, but still they did well with their life and for us kids. I think mom was a Junior in HS and dad was in 8Th when they was signed out for one reason or another.

Well, I guess I have rambled enough. I hope to get some kind of feed back, blessed be.

New Years Rose

New Years Rose
by: Raychel Darkling

The beautiful rose has always been attributed deeper meanings, used to deliver messages between lovers and friends. This habit literary bloomed during the strict Victorian era when passionate messages could be exchanged between lovers in the form of innocent looking bouquets. I wanted to make my own rose for you..

Its thorns to show the past and our strength to carry on. The bud is for whats yet to come blossoming in to future. The petals soft caring bloomed in celebration of our life.. The stem and leaves to show a long lifeline.

Red is for our love and romance past present and future. Pink is for the grace and elegance that we all carry. Yellow is for the friendships we have made. White is for the hope we will always have. Orange is for our own desire may it never die. Peach is for the dealings in our life may they all go well. Green for all the births this year and may there be many in the future. Black is for the deaths how the ones we have lost will always be missed ,also black for new beginnings. Blue to show the mysteries in life. Lavender is for our imaginations and enchantment ,and tea rose simply because i will never forget you.

I chose to write this as a single rose in meaning i will always love you and never forget you. I write this for a few specific people in my life who has touched me and been here for me in good and bad times you know who you are and I love you and always will. May all these be remembered from our pasts our present and our future together.

May we all have some peaceful hope at last..

happy new year


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