New Years Rose

New Years Rose
by: Raychel Darkling

The beautiful rose has always been attributed deeper meanings, used to deliver messages between lovers and friends. This habit literary bloomed during the strict Victorian era when passionate messages could be exchanged between lovers in the form of innocent looking bouquets. I wanted to make my own rose for you..

Its thorns to show the past and our strength to carry on. The bud is for whats yet to come blossoming in to future. The petals soft caring bloomed in celebration of our life.. The stem and leaves to show a long lifeline.

Red is for our love and romance past present and future. Pink is for the grace and elegance that we all carry. Yellow is for the friendships we have made. White is for the hope we will always have. Orange is for our own desire may it never die. Peach is for the dealings in our life may they all go well. Green for all the births this year and may there be many in the future. Black is for the deaths how the ones we have lost will always be missed ,also black for new beginnings. Blue to show the mysteries in life. Lavender is for our imaginations and enchantment ,and tea rose simply because i will never forget you.

I chose to write this as a single rose in meaning i will always love you and never forget you. I write this for a few specific people in my life who has touched me and been here for me in good and bad times you know who you are and I love you and always will. May all these be remembered from our pasts our present and our future together.

May we all have some peaceful hope at last..

happy new year


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if god gives us times of dispaire to make us stronger... then why does he take the ones in life that gives us the most strength?

I guess you can say...
I'm pretty pissy lately, but I think I have all the right in the world to be depressed, pissed off ,and just plain in bitch mode over 80% of the time now. I mean between march and this month I've been tested so to speak, and if I hear just one more damned person tell Me to get over shit they do not understand nor have been threw so help Me I believe I will kick there teeth in. yes I know I know this god thing about how we are tested to make us stronger but what do you do when the one person you know that makes you stronger isn't here anymore? what then? I think about My sister all the time several times a day. I guess her death gave Me more hope for a heaven perhaps even a bit more faith that it's really there and our forefathers aren't just fucking around with our head, life and everything else. I believe in spirit, ghost and anything else you would like to call them. so why is it so hard for Me to just give full faith and believe everything I have been taught to think My whole life? right now if all this is true god is testing Me way too much lately between going threw two years of watching My sister die with cancer having hope just to have it dashed when it came back. then her death. and all between this I have normal life issues also car screwing up, other deaths, stress, work, it all then couple months back someone broke in to My house and stole almost everything small enough to shove in My baskets and took the hell off. in the end of it all our neighbors got arrested for breaking and entering. not My house or anyone Else's but a church of all places. I still haven't went to the police no wait they said the sheriff station like that should be a fucking different place but here in scottsburg it is. but anyway sorry for the rambling just trying to get things out of My head before it festers more and end up taking over. Maybe I'm wrong and it's just bad things happen and god is testing us. but what if right now in My mind I'm right and there is no real hope of anything? what if this is as good as it gets? what if god is just a mean child playing with toys? what if there is no heaven no hell no anything just earth and we are bound to it for eternity? even after death we are meant to roam in another realm of earth hit and missing the ones still alive? I guess I will never know... well not while I'm alive anyway...

and a small note to friends and family who are god fearing... I'm not atheist... nor a satanist... I just have questions and things I needed to get out... so read this put it away and shush about it... everyone fights their own demons right now I am My own... and NO I don't believe I'm took over by Satan or anything else... maybe I shouldn't post this cause I have the feeling it will get out and reworded all wrong... oh well I'll take My chances...